This month has been full (actually spilling over) : full of life and full of challenge
Change
A. I started a new job on September 1. And by job I mean I am participating in a National Service Program, where I volunteer at an organization/school/foundation 32 to 45 hours a weeks, participate in leadership training, work on community projects, and network like crazy so I basically work 50-60 hours a week - easy. I will be doing this for the next 10 months. Fortunately, I did this same program last year - so I know the drill, but it's still a minor shock after having the month of August off.
B. Oh yeah, and the last week of August I decided to lose 100 lbs. yeah, that's a change.
So mixing A + B = C, and C is for CHAOS. It has proven to be incredible difficult to get use to a new job, new team, new goals, and all of this, all at once... this is where learning and forgiveness come in.
Learning
What I have learned...
- I have personally come a LONGGG way in the past year
- There are some areas in my life I need an extreme amount of structure and other areas where I do not (or I think I don't)
- I pour myself into my job/work and forget about the day to day life needs
- I go into fight of flight mode when I am uncomfortable, unfamiliar, or looking for direction
- I start to shut down under these circumstances and I try to "fake it til I make it" but that is utterly exhausting
What I still need to learn...
- How to balance my work and life
- How to lean into the discomfort/unfamiliar with a little more ease
- How to build structure for the areas of my life that need it
Forgiveness
So what am I going to do with all of this?
1. I am starting Weight Watchers on Tuesday. This will offer structure while still keeping me honest and making good choices.
2. More Journaling, More Self-reflection, More gratitude (forgiveness in full effect) & More Blogging (I want to use this tool for what I intended it for in the 1st place)
3. Exercise (even if just for 10 minutes), Water, and proper sleep EVERYDAY.
Has anyone out there had a dramatic change at the beginning of weight loss journey? How did you handle it or get through it? I'd love some advice
Enjoy the rest of your weekend and have a beautiful week!